i guess u really need a lot of courage to tell me abt it. and i'm glad that u told me cuz i can really feel that u trust me. but its just too hard for me to accept it.
actually i'm really very scared that u will do it again after u read my post, and what if it goes deeper and deeper since u cant feel e pain at all?? i really cannot imagine it. but i'm sure u noe that its not good to hurt ur body that your mother gave u?? and thats y u dun wanna let her noe right?? i'm sure no 1 can really stop u if u really wan to do it and that wat i'm really afraid of.
to tell u e truth, u are not alone. i did it to myself once b4 when i was in lower sec after my grandfather passed away, plus other stuff that was gg on at that time. and e best part is i also cant feel e pain at all. but i somehow stopped.. and i really regret what i did to myself. hard to believe??
i've never tell this to anybody before. u r e 1st to noe. i'm same as u, i dun talk to anyone abt my problems.
i cried becuz i saw myself in u.. cuz i can really feel the "no 1 can help. only i can help myself." that kind of feeling in u.
Sunday, February 04, 2007
